09.16.17 | irma
last week, i evacuated my hometown of naples to stay in atlanta where i spent time with family and laughed and lived the privileged life of an american. away from the 185mph lashings of irma. yes, there was a weight at the pit of my stomach - the worry of other family members and loved ones still in florida. it's a feeling of helplessness. so what do you do? breath, stay quiet, pray...close yourself away in the office for a few days. i arrived back in naples on thursday. as i drove through the city i cried deeply because i've never seen natural destruction like this before. and certainly not in my hometown. i've never experienced this type of reality. and i've never felt so much thanks before, either. for life and for our home. how did our homes survive? based on everything surrounding them, it doesn't seem possible. since returning, i've stayed silent, i've cried and once that was released i prayed and gave(give) thanks...thank you. never enough. i haven't and won't give detailed visuals of what irma brought because i don't intend to extend my pain body to anyone. i try my best. everyone has been through so much lately - floodings, hurricanes, fires, earthquakes, etc. with each passing year my intent to extent love and light in the realist way possible becomes stronger. i only know the love i extend because i have seen and been the other end of it. i only know the light i extend because i have seen and been the other end of it. my beautiful friend and i were digging into this recently, "the amount of light that we can bring into the world is equal to the amount of darkness that we can accept and love", and that quote now has more validity than ever before. we experience the dark to become the light. in retrospect, naples will rebuild, houston will rebuild, puerto rico and cuba will rebuild...in time. barbuda too. time. my worries are minuscule compared to others. i know this. i'm american, and i recognize i live a life of freedom and privilege. but, i'm also human and that is feeling more real today than ever before.